I share a lot about my failures and what I learn from them on my blog.
I don’t do this because I think we should always focus what we’re doing wrong. My purpose in sharing these things, is that many times I think we go through life feeling that we are alone in the many difficult things that happen. We allow these situations (whether actual sins or honest mistakes) to hinder us from growing or trying things again.
In my life, one of the most important lessons I’ve learned is that we cannot let hard experiences from the past harden us or keep us from trying new things in the future.
This weekend I made a cake for my niece￼. It was valentines themed, covered in cream cheese icing with white chocolate decorations. I made it pretty simple, so it wasn’t extravagant or anything and when it was finished I was happy with how it turned out.
I had been wanting to try a white chocolate raspberry cake for a long time, so I asked my sister if I could make one for my niece￼￼.
I used a DELICIOUS blueberry cake recipe and swapped the blueberries for raspberries, assuming it would still be as moist as always. What I failed to consider is that￼ raspberries don’t add the moisture that blueberries do.
The result? A dry and dense cake￼.
At first I felt terrible! Of course my mind went to all my past failures and I began to wallow in those familiar thoughts: that “I was losing my knack for cakes” and that “I would never bake for other people again￼!!”
What I failed to realize is that trying new things (like the last time I did) doesn’t always work out. There are in fact, many new things I tried this time that worked out really well￼￼!
I made up a new filling￼, that I will definitely be using again. It tasted amazing!￼ I added raspberries, strawberries, melted white chocolate, cream cheese, icing sugar, vanilla and I beat it together￼. Then I beat (in a separate bowl￼) whipped cream, adding no sugar or flavouring to it. Once it was totally whipped, I stirred the two together￼.
Oh. My. Word.
The result was heavenly!￼
But… going back to my terrible feeling about the cake￼. I had wasted about $20 and four hours of my time￼.
I felt so much shame that I just wanted to quit.￼
But as I’ve been doing a lot lately, I took these feelings to Jesus in the most simple and practical way￼ because He Cares.
He actually cares! So often we don’t go to him with these feelings and we instead hide them deep inside. We make ourselves promises such as￼, “I’m never doing this again!￼” and those harmful promises hinder our future.
So I went to him. Here’s a simple conversation we had￼:
Me: Today I tried my best on a cake and it really didn’t turn out. So disappointing! Father, do I need to just stop making cakes for people? This seems to happen far too often! I feel so stupid￼ when my best work fails.
God: How would you feel if you purchase￼d something that didn’t quite turn out?
Me￼: Honestly, I hate spending money on homemade things. So I’d be pretty disappointed.
God: Disappointed enough to hold it against the person who made it? Or to make a big deal and not pay for it?￼
Me: No. I just probably wouldn’t order again from that person￼.
God: You always have options Heather! What do you want to do? You have two choices￼:
1) Say nothing and collect the money, taking the chance that (the person) won’t order from you again.
2) Charge nothing and tell her that her honesty helped you learn important baking lesson for the future. You will be remembered for your integrity￼ and probably ordered from again. It’s your choice! Do you want to do use this experience to grow your skill as a baker and your integrity? Or would you rather stop doing something that you have an obvious talent for￼?
Me: Wow I never saw it that way! That sounds so simple. Thanks for listening Jesus￼.
Sometimes simple￼ wisdom seems complicated in the moment.
How often do we miss the peace God has for us￼ by stressing about things we could have simply talked to him about? How often in the past have I shut myself off￼ to a simple lesson because I’m so busy wallowing in shame?
I think it’s best said in the simplicity of the age old song￼:
All our sins and griefs to bear,
And what a privilege to carry,
Everything to God in prayer!
Oh, what needless pain we bear!
All because we do not carry,
Everything to God in prayer!