Is it really nearing the end of May? I feel like it’s passed me by in a blink.
I took a pause to write today.
Not because I really wanted to or because I had a lot to say, but mainly because I’ve been working non-stop on projects this past month and I need to just stop. Stop and remember that there are more important things than work.
“All work no play makes Jack a dull boy” …and it makes me a “grumpy, task focused, tired gal.”
My mind is drained. My body is weary. I work through the aching back and sore neck. I strain through the blisters, the cuts and the bruises. For what exactly?
To distract myself from an uncertain and unfamiliar world.
It’s easier to focus on things, rather than people when it’s people we’re told to avoid. It’s easier just to stay home and ignore the outside world while I work myself to the bone. It’s easier to watch “how-to” videos than the current news.
So I shut it all out and focus on one thing: Making home better.
It took a good sit down this afternoon to realize how hard I’ve been pushing myself and how ridiculous my expectations are. You wanna know what I expected to accomplish this month?
-Lead a weekly bible study on zoom.
– Homeschooling 5 kids.
-Finish our downstairs bathroom (from dingy, concrete floor bathroom to Pinterest post).
-Handtill and plant my garden.
– Repaint my front door.
-Sand down and paint my large back deck and veranda.
– Organize my closets, shed and garage.
– Plant 12 trees on my yard.
– Re-level our ground to set up the above ground pool. Also order a new cover, heater and filter system for it.
– Make front Garden Boxes and fill with soil/shrubs.
-Keep up with all the housework, meals, etc on top of everything else.
I seriously had it down to eight hours of work a day besides my cooking, housework and homeschooling. And it took three weeks of this before I realized that it’s just too much to expect. You think just reading through my “to-do” list would have snapped me back to reality, but in reality, it’s that very “to-do” list that keeps me going at sprinting speed from morning until night.
No time for texting, writing, social media, baking, running, personal care… just my list.
And so I stop, taking the time to write today because I need to. It reminds me of what’s important. God. Family. Laughter, relationships, rest.
And I delete. Check the boxes I’ve done. Let the accomplishments sink in. Cut the other goals in half. They will happen. It does not need to be this month.
Level ground and set up pool
Sand and stain deck & veranda – Re– paint front door.
Organize closets, shed & garage
Make front garden boxes and plant shrubs
See you later “to-do” list. I’m taking the rest of the day off.
…Ok. Maybe after I finish planting the garden 😉